Hello All!! How is everyone doing? Everyone ready to send those kiddos back to school, or go back yourself? Lord knows, I am ready! These kids are driving me insane! hehe. The good thing is that they both watch Harry Potter with me all day. It is insanely hot here in Tennessee right now, so we havent been outside much. I hate the heat with a passion!! Lol! The only thing we really have been doing while my husband works is go to the YMCA, so that their momma can get her work out on. Not that y’all care, but I’m gonna share anyways, I’ve lost 3lbs last week! YEHAW! It isnt the 10 that I lost the week before but it is healthy weight loss. Let me share a little story with y’all. Michael (the husband) and I eloped when we were 18, got married because our families told us we couldnt. So I didnt get my big ole wedding I had dreamed about. Fast forward 6 years, and Michael and I decided to finally have our wedding, only problem, I had gained SOOOOO much weight with the birth of my children. So I decided that I needed to lose some weight. I did good for a month but then I went to find a dress and was disgusted with the way I look so I went hardcore on my weight lost. 5 months later, I had lost 65 pounds. I did it in such a horrible way that I’ve gained almost all that weight back since I didnt stick with the intense diet I had put myself on. Well, a couple weeks ago, I looked at myself in the mirror and felt disgusting. I had gained all of it back, and honestly I dont know why my husband loves my big ass. 
The icing on the cake was my daughter looked up at me, and with the saddest look on her face said, “Mommy, when I get older I dont want to be fat.”
I said, “Baby, you wont be.”
“Yes, I will mommy, because you are and I want to be just like you.”
So yeah, broke my heart and I decided I needed to change myself, not only for me but so my daughter never thinks that again. I know its my fault she thinks that, because I’m always calling myself a fatty and stuff like that. But I want to change it. So now, I’ve decided that I need to do it the right way and follow a diet plan and all that jazz. I’m proud of what I’ve accomplished and know that I’ll meet my first goal of 25lbs by Disney. Funny picture huh? Shea has to keep me motivated when I’m on the elliptical! hehe! OH BY THE WAY! INCASE YOU MISSED IT! MY GORGEOUS SHEA WEBER IS STILL A PREDATOR!!!!!!!!!!! I’m gonna need him not to scare me like that ever again!
So off the subject of my big ole ass, let discuss something really cool! I am going to be at the Indie Romance Convention!!! I know people on facebook all know this but my blog followers might not! So yay, huh?! I’m really excited and if you are anywhere near TN, please come!! I am also looking into going to some other author meet and greets! I want to meet everyone! Thank you guys for being awesome!!! So yeah, I’m really excited. Also! I just put this one facebook, but my tshirt came in!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YEHAW! they are sooooo beautiful, i love them sooo very much! You can go on my facebook page to check out my sweet little bits wearing them! Maybe even to enter the little contest I’m running!
Okay, so I am in the final stages of the edit of Empty Net. I can’t wait for it to be done. Ready to hold that sucker in my hand, kiss the cover and wish it luck in the world of reading. I am hoping for big things with Empty Net. It is just so good, and I didnt feel this confident about the other two. This one, I dont know, I just have really high hopes! So finger crossed guys! I bet all of you are just waiting to get your paws on it and fall in love with Audrey and Tate, y’all will probably look like this kid on September 11th! 
Also, I dont know if y’all missed this or not, but I started Blue Lines….heheheheheehhehe. My husband is so mad, lol. He said “How in the world are you gonna start that one when Empty Net isnt fully done!” I just can’t help myself though. The next heroine has been on my mind HARDCORE and she deserves me to write her story! Just for shit and giggles, here is the last line I wrote last night: all the air rushed out of her as one of her favorite quotes by William Shakespeare came to mind.
When I saw you, I fell in love, and you smiled because you knew.
And just like that, she knew she had fallen in love.
I’m excited to really dive into this one, just gotta wait for Empty Net to be fully done! Then I’ll go back into writing mode, God help my friends 
and family! lol. Well, I really dont have anything else for y’all. Just know that I really do love all of you and look forward to seeing what everyone thinks of Empty Net! Only a month and a half left! Now off I go, gotta go to the dentist. BLAH! I am not excited about this! lol See y’all next week!!!! BYE!!!!
Congrats of the weight loss Toni!! 🙂 It’s funny you should mention your “big ass”….I too belong to that club & everyone that knows me well knows that my self-prescribed “theme song” is the one & only “Fat Bottomed Girls” by Queen. I have always been on the heavy side all my life. My highest a size 20, smallest size 8. I am now the “typical” size 14. I am happy at that and know that I will probably the same size when I draw my last breath. I had a chat with a really good friend awhile ago…the topic?? Habits & food/eating etc. I told her I don’t smoke/do drugs/may drink a couple times a year….so for sure if I want to eat something I’m gonna…& it ain’t gonna have the words “light” or “lite” in it!! 😉 My husband says you don’t get much out of this life so you might as well EAT what you want!!
“Blue Lines” sounds incredible!! I love those last lines you wrote…”Empty Net” isn’t even out yet & I WANT this one too!!! Now that I have bored you with my rant…I’ll leave you with this parting song….
http://youtu.be/VMnjF1O4eH0
18LOVE IT! I’m at my highest right now at 18/20, I want to be a 14/16. Thats my goal. I am really big bone, I have really wide hips, so I doubt I looked right all skinny and stuff! lol. I love food, something serious, I just dont know moderation. I go balls out on everything I do. lol. So oh well, I’m learning!! Thanks so much for sharing with me and I LOVE THE SONG! heheheheheheh It will now be stuck in my head alllllllllll day!
<3 she just wants to be like her awesomeness momma! Good luck with your goal. I've been on that rollercoaster ride before, = not fun…. Who's the lucky lady in Blue Lines?
hehehehe! yes she does, I love her so much and I’m ready for this. Before I was just I dont know, not committed. This time, its on and popping! Not giving away the heroine yet! Gotta read Empty Net first!!! 🙂
FAB BABE!! and yea you crazy for starting BL!!!! for realz girl!!!
LMFAO! oh well, it will be okay 🙂 hopefully you’ll want to critique with me again!
Thanks for share with us your true story. I know alot of us are in the same struggle. It really means that you comfortable with us to share.
Thanks so much 🙂
Good Luck! I am feeling ya! Just moved back to my small hometown after living in Atlanta for the past 13+ years. I am at the heaviest I’ve ever been ( I am 5’3″ and 18/20 myself) and am on my own personal journey to look the best I’ve ever looked by my 40th bday (in 2yrs). Of course my 6’5″ husband decided to lose weight and has lost over 60lbs in 8 mos. (He has only 10 more to go uugghh) just by walking and here I am having carried the giants babies and cant lose it no matter what I do Hahhaha I have faith I’ll figure out the right formula of diet exercise soon enough though.
Cant wait to read Empty Net!!! And wish I had your creativity and ability to write!!! I’ll just enjoy them so keep it up! Lol
my husband is the same way. he is naturally skinny, it drives me insane. lol. he’s so amazing though, he told me last night he loves my curves and thinks I’m sexy the way I am. Good man, that guy 🙂
I can’t wait for it to come out either! SOOOOOOOOO READY!
Way to go Toni!!! I’m overweight also and it’s tough to try and lose it. My hubby loves me no matter what, but I still want to lose it. Not vanity, but health reasons.. Good luck and keep us posted. Thank you for the pic insert of the hockey player and the quote about the elliptical. I saved it and am going to post it on my Fridge!!