During an amazing conversation with my very intoxicated close friend, she told me that I might need to explain myself a bit with Fallon. That maybe people don’t just get her, or maybe do a back story about her.
I really don’t want to get back into Fallon and Lucas mode, my mind is already in Empty Net and I don’t want to go back. But I do want to say a few things about Fallon.
When I wrote Fallon, I thought of her as this deeply wounded woman that on the outside she is strong and confident (I wanted to do something different since Elli was so insecure). But on the inside, Fallon is falling apart because she lost her person. I personally love the character I made. I know, that if you were face to face with Lucas and he was turning on his Lucas charm, you would be a gonner but he broke Fallon. So at first she is trying her best to resist him.
When Lucas and Fallon met they were young, and everyone remembers young love. The intense, I would never leave you, you are mine and only mine kind of love. I remember it like it was yesterday, thankfully I never had to go through the pain of losing my one and only but Fallon did. She was so engrossed in Lucas, so in love, that finding him in bed with her best friend, just devastated her. Then she finds out she is pregnant and flees home where her father is complete ass to her. He continually reminds her of what she messed up. To top it off, Fallon goes seven years looking at a face that is the exact same one of the man she left, the man that broke her.
So yes, she is angry. She is mean, and bitchy, but if someone ripped your heart out and stomped on it, then you live seven years with the constant reminder of that love and that heartbreak that you lost, would you be nice? Especially when no matter what you still love him even if you don’t want too? It has to suck, and I think the way I wrote Fallon dealing with it was best.
I didn’t want it to be, they meet back up, she hates him but he convinces her not to, they have sex, the end. I mean, I wanted some depth, some feeling. I wanted you to get mad and feel for what they were going through. Whats the point in reading a book and at the end feeling nothing?
That just pointless.
Another thing I want to address.
Everyone has said how much they love Aiden. Y’all don’t know how much that means to me. Aiden is my son, Mikey.
Everything Aiden loves, he does, and the way he acts has been inspired by my own seven year old. Seven years olds are intense. Some are way above their age and my son is one of them. There isn’t a day that goes by where my son doesn’t blow me away. He’s amazing, perfect and my everything. So thank you for saying that you loved Aiden and that you thought he was perfect because I think so too.
Next thing I want to say is AIN’T is a word.
I use the word AIN’T constantly. My word document doesn’t even turn it RED anymore. It is now a regular word just like everything else. I am southern belle. Even college educated people use ain’t, and it doesn’t mean that I didn’t go to college or that I’m not educated. It’s just a word in my vocabulary. I write the way I talk. It is who I am, and I am not going to change it. The day I stop saying Aint is the day I die.
Seriously. I have the best and kindest fan and I do love y’all something stupid. I appreciate your kind words of encouragement and your constant love for my books. Thank you so much. Really, y’all mean the world to me.
I swear, I’m almost done, but God, I love Shea Weber and my Preds! Two more games and we are off to round two!!! GO PREDS!!!!!
I love you! I have to say that it took me a bit to warm up to Fallon, but you made me love her and I ADORE Lucas and Fallon as a couple! Also, thank you for sharing about your son! So sweet. 🙂 Trying to Score was a truly FANTASTIC read! Your books are always on the top of my rec reads!
aw thanks so much Autumn! it means the world that you are in my life <3
I use “ain't”, too! Heck, yeah its a word! It's a southern thing 😉
Ingot Fallon. it took me a few chapters to warm up to her, too, but I understand her resentment and trust issues. That fact that her dad wasnt the best role model didn't help her. Lucas fought so hard to finally win his person that I have to say he's right up there with Shea as the perfect man.
I can't wait for Empty Net! I'm dying to know who Audrey's person is! She deserves her happily ever after! Aww and Aiden. That's my nephew Aiden right there. same name, age, personality. Love him 🙂
hehehe! Fallon is intense! lol. As soon as I reach 100 reviews I will let you know who it is!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Funny you should say “ain't”…we were just talking about it at work the other day. Someone tried to tell me that it wasn't even a word, I told them if it's in the dictionary it's a word!! 😉 (Must be an East Coast thing too)
Personally I felt for Fallon. Sure she was a hard-ass but I just heard this saying “Don't judge me. You only know my face, not my story”, I think this fits her really well. I absolutely love her & Lucas together. They are going to make a great family!!
I think modelling Aiden after your son, Mikey, was awesome Toni!! According to “Aiden” he must be one awesome kid!! 🙂
I CANNOT wait for “Empty Net”….you have brought to life a fabulous family/community in the “Assassins” series. And please DON'T forget about us & “Tuesday Teaser” when writing Audrey's story, OK??
Ohhhhhh yea…..GO PREDS!! 🙂
Great blog Toni!!
Its insane cause I grew up on AINT but ALOT of people have issues with it. And when I say alot, i mean alot. People have docked me stars because of it. blah, oh well, can't please everyone!
Aw, my Mikey, he is one awesome kiddo! 🙂
I can not wait to get Empty Net done. I was driving today and a whole scene just bounced in my head! I'm so excited!! and of course I will do Tuesday Teaser as soon as I reach 100 reviews on Amazon!!!!
YEAH! GO PREDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thank so much!
First I will say that I have never commented on an author's page before because it felt silly. But your books have caught me!! I have always loved hockey and to put my favorite sport in a love story? Hello,you are my new best friend!
Except I am a Red Wings fan so I really don't wish that the Predators win, sorry!
But I do wish for more stories and if the Predators win, I hope that next book comes out real fast!
Thanks again for writing some great stories!
Dont feel silly! I love to talk to people that love my books! YAY! i love that you love the sport and romance books! it makes me happy!!!
And I have to say its okay that you are a wings fan! lol, my husband is too! hehehe!!!
Thank sooooooooooo much!
Now that the Bruins are out of things, I have the time to catch up with your two books that I have been saving 🙂 I purposely waited for the second book to come out since I like instant gratification LOL. I wanted to say that really like that both your books are on the long side and that you took the time develop things with your characters. I liked getting to a certain point in the story and realizing that I've only read 40% or whatever! I'm a hockey mom and I LOVED reading about the joy Lucas felt watching Aiden on the ice. I felt the same way watching my husband stepping out to coach my two little Mites. Can't wait for next story!
I must admit that at some point in the story, I hated Fallon for being so difficult to Lucas. But hey, who am I to judge her? I haven’t experienced what she went through. And I can’t even imagine myself in that situation. I admired her for being a strong woman, and a great mom as well. And shoot! I so love Lucas and especially Aiden! And PLEASE Toni! Can you post a photo of Aiden James Brooks?!? I would love to see his face beside Fallon and Lucas in your Trying to Score page. Yay! I’m looking forward to seeing that amazing kid’s cute little face! More powers! I’m a big fan, and I can’t wait to read Blue Lines! xoxo 🙂